the pain that is in my heart is still as raw and physically real in the deepest moments of heartache as two years ago.
i tried to go to my mom's grave today.
i ended up having to do a u.turn in the middle of the street after a serious. meltdown.
i know she's not at the gravesite.
i don't know what made me feel like i had to go.. . the fact that it has been two years.
Two years since i have seen her.
Touched her. Held her.
Talked to her.
I know she would say I'm not there - I'm with Jesus. Don't make yourself upset.
Time doesn't make it easier.
My heart still aches.
i know where she is.
but i want to be next to her.