9.13.2015

the mirror


this past summer was one of the hardest summers i've had to endure.
.for many reasons
one of them being my job

there were some mornings i woke up to find my fists clenched.
unsure if i had slept that way.
i had horribly sad dreams at least once a week.
and counted down the days until i could be back home at my school in September.


i see my dad every Sunday like clockwork.
we go out to lunch.
he would ask what was going on with everything.
and i would tell him.
as always he would give me advice
and then follow up with
Do you think there is something you are getting out of this job experience?

and i would respond with all sincerity
No. 
Every time.
I could not see it.

With everything that has happened in my life .. . and I've had my share.
with all of it.
I can usually reflect after some time and find purpose, meaning in it.
I've always been able to find the silver in the dark thunderclouds.
i think that is my mom's doing.
but THIS time. 
i really could not.

about two weeks before camp ended,
i started listening to CrossPoint services online.
one of my favorite pastors - out of Tennessee. 
I've followed him for years now.

I started making my way through all the series on YouTube.

That became my favorite part of the day.
the drive to work - the drive home

This sermon in particular I must have listened to five or six times.



A lot from this series speaks of Jesus and his disciples. 
So I started to read over Matthew, Mark, Mark, Luke again. 

After Jesus has fed five thousand, walked on water. ..
the disciples are still asking to have things explained to them.
You still don't trust me after all you've seen me do?
"ARE YOU STILL SO DULL?"
Matthew 15:16

It's comical to imagine Jesus saying that to someone. 
even as I read that I chuckled a bit.

But a giant mirror appeared before me.

Why don't I still get it? 
.. after everything He's led me through.
Why am I still doubting that He has it all worked out?
 Why am I still so dull? 







This was another repeat all summer. 

There's so much that she says that hits home. 
He was just very kind in saying, 
"Hey, I've done some bigger things than this before."


It's September now and camp is long over. 
Other problems that plagued me are gone and new ones I'm sure are on the horizon. 
But now I can say without a doubt that there was a reason for the job experience.

Don't think it had anything to do with teaching experience or art techniques. 


I needed to see my reflection. 







6.13.2015

take it nice and .Slow


i'm wishing i could use something like this in the next few months. 
but i will have to wait a bit until there is a real yard in my possession. 


                                                
                                                         from HamacArt




Loving. 
this new bag i snagged from Podolls

my body ..  . brain. wasn't made to go fast. 
i like it that way. 
nice and Slow. 








4.11.2015

.these Three

can never remember how i stumble upon these songs
but now they continue to repeat 
and repeat

who can resist Ingrid?
and this new to me. Miia 




.Repeat



3.25.2015

wednesday's agony



some red wine + this scene + a fresh coat of nail polish fixes a bad day .. . just a little.



3.14.2015

YouTubing my Big Sister


needed to upload this video to You.Tube so 
with new phones and computer crashes, i could be assured i would never lose track of it.

this makes my heart so happy. even if she is stuck in a box.


2.24.2015

#itisnotthecriticwhocounts


when it comes to car commercials
these new Cadillac ones far surpass any McConaughey Lincolns. 

i've already watched this four times. 
.it's better than some sitcoms. 








Another connection.. .worth your watching. 




2.19.2015

Side by Side: All of Us

i feel like
this 


.has been my life the last couple of days.

And Tess, Henry, Jayden and I have a bit more to go.. . 



gotta say i'm loving it. 



2.17.2015

three happies



.i have more. But here are three from today.

  
.one
the art of backing into my garage has officially been mastered. 
now that i typed that, i will probably rip off one of my side mirrors







.two
Henry is visiting while his daddy surfs in warm waters.
Tess is utterly happy. 
This photo captures her momentary craze.




.three
First off, I thought Demi Lovato and Selena Gomez were one in the same. 
Now that I have that figured out. 
this song got me all up and excited. 

It was on my XM Preview while I was flipping back and forth in the car. 
.those youngins
they make some good "music"
sometimes





1.24.2015

saturday snow days



1. today's country channel 881
2. dishwasher .. . washing machine running
3. food made for the next few days
4. puppy sleeping, fat cat in a ball
4. on the high from last night's . ..


 


1.05.2015

Cutshall and Bieber Forever


this appeared on my Vine feed today.
Matt Cutshall is a hysterical person to follow.



have to say .. and i will Not be embarrassed.. . I forgot how much i liked this song. 





JB's a little boy.
this was before he turned into a maniac.




This awesome site was discovered when i tried to find locate Vine on my computer. 
silly, me.

VineMarket
looks like i found a new place to shop




1.04.2015

happy woman in a rental car


my car is currently getting all prettied up after a Rt. 22 incident
where Driver A: known as Dufus collided into Driver B: known as innocent 36 year old teacher minding her own business. 

it took me 4 months to eventually get my act together and take the car in. 
Nonetheless, by Tuesday it will look brand.spanking new. 
i am currently driving around a Totoya Camry which has dangerous pick.up. 

my phone is not hooked into the Bluetooth obviously so i'm stuck listening to the radio. 
white people problems, yes.

Z.100 is what is on. 
haven't listened to that since i've was 25. 

i heard this and loved it. 
perfect song to start off the new year. 

it's been a solid start to the Year already.
Right off with the first day of 2015.

I am one happy woman.