i see .You

a while ago, i watched a strange
.. . albeit memorable and unique ben affleck movie .To The Wonder
one line hung on my heart since watching it. 
i've always believed it to be true.

even on the worst days, there will always be one, sometimes barely visible- but always there.
one message reminding me that these _ our pains, our sadnesses, whatever frustrations _ are temporary.
Our hope is in Him.
without a shadow of a doubt I believe that "we were made to see [Him]." [4:55]

while at my sister's church this weekend, we worshipped with a rend collective experiment song i posted somewhere a bit ago. 

i've listened to it probably twenty times since i have returned home yesterday. 
ironic, how in these two, almost polar opposite art forms. .. 
He is ever so clearly reflected.

.Build Your Kingdom Here

  • Come set your rule and reign
  • In our hearts again
  • Increase in us we pray
  • Unveil why we're made
  • Come set our hearts ablaze with hope
  • Like wildfire in our very souls
  • Holy Spirit come invade us now
  • We are Your Church
  • We need Your power
  • In us
  • We seek Your kingdom first
  • We hunger and we thirst
  • Refuse to waste our lives
  • For You're our joy and prize
  • To see the captive hearts released
  • The hurt; the sick; the poor at peace
  • We lay down our lives for Heaven's cause
  • We are Your church
  • We pray revive
  • This Earth
  • Build Your kingdom here
  • Let the darkness fear
  • Show Your mighty hand
  • Heal our streets and land
  • Set Your church on fire
  • Win this nation back
  • Change the atmosphere
  • Build Your kingdom here
  • We pray
  • Unleash Your kingdom's power
  • Reaching the near and far
  • No force of hell can stop
  • Your beauty changing hearts
  • You made us for much more than this
  • Awake the kingdom seed in us
  • Fill us with the strength and love of Christ
  • We are Your church
  • We are the hope
  • On Earth

  • 6.02.2013

    her wings

    today was one of those days when i thought .. . and honestly would have started walking toward the phone _
    i want to call my mom. 

    i had to tell her something. 
    it actually lingered in my mind and heart as real, for at least five full seconds. 
    Made my heart feel full again.

    My mom used to talk about life and death to my niece, Samantha.. .and compare it to the life stages of butterfly.
    The insect appears dead with its chrysalis and then comes to life as an incomparable winged beauty.
    our grey earthly bodies radiantly transform _ shaking death forever and living eternally with Him.

    Looking back, she knew what was going to happen, and she probably knew it was going to happen sooner than any of us wanted to consciously admit. So she was preparing one of the youngest, who in so many ways was a reflection of her. even sharing a birthday.

    This year, my class had the opportunity to watch this process unfold in our classroom everyday. 
    On the day that the first butterflies emerged.. . 
    On the day when I needed her love, a message from her.. .
    As usual, my mom who can't remain quiet for long.
    did this.

    the framed picture of my dad, her and i from my college graduation 
    on the floor

    right behind my teacher's desk
    just sitting there waiting to be found.
    she always did have to have the last word.

    .i'm glad about that now