she grit her teeth and loved me

My favorite holiday since my mother's passing is Easter. 

The words to the hymns make me cry big fat happy tears. 

Can't stop them. Don't want to. 

This year I was on a Delta plane  - gosh knows how high up in the sky -  as my family was at church. .. and I missed out on the celebration of Jesus's resurrection and my mom's everlasting life. She now sings in tune in the most angelic voice and not off key into her daughters' ears during church services where we would quietly giggle. 

We couldn't help it. 

No matter what age we were. 

Little girls or up until when this last photo was shot. 

This picture is from my mom's last Easter and man alive, does it make me so beyond happy. 

Smiling ear to ear. 

I can hear her when i look at it and she almost jumps off of the computer, hugging on me. 

the type of hug where she would always grit her teeth, almost to the point of breaking. 

I could hear her as she was loving me.

She couldn't contain it.

I'm basking in this photograph this spring.time. 

If I shut my eyes, I'm there. 

She's still here. in so many places. 

Four years later. 

 

the .Wonderful unknown

lyrics .. . perfection

.truth

chris tomlin makes me cry

the next two weeks are going to eat me alive.. .

.i can feel it coming already

going to need some hard.core prayer. 
certainly not going to be able to do it alone.


i've posted this before
and listened to it twenty .. thirty.. . maybe forty times counting the views on my phone.
every single time, it makes me cry. 
something in chris tomlin's account of the writing of the song and the 2 Kings passage. 
it all just turns me to a weepy, can't catch my breath. mess. 

maybe this week is not the best to listen to this one. 

are you listening?

seems like i've been writing about commercials lately. 
i'm not going to delve into why. .. nor do i particularly know why..  ? 
other than saying _

.. . those swiffer people, they got me good.
i'll surely buy the duster now. 

i hate being bamboozled by cute old people.

my sister is mean

saw this commercial a month or so ago.
loved it for a variety of reasons which i won't detail here and bore you.

nonetheless. 
i went about a search for the video on the inter.world. galactic net and this blog post came up
A Car Commercial That Humors Your Shitty Art World Dreams.
it made me laugh .. . quite a lot.
[you must read]


and now i'm stuck in a quandry.
which side do i stand on?

do i need to choose a subaru side anyway?
i think not.
my sister would say i was a loser for even posing that question.
thanks, alli.

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