repeat after me

He laughed for at least five full minutes.
had to leave the classroom to try to catch his breath
.. . and then started up again when he got back.

all because i had him repeat after me "big to small or small to big?"
.we were converting measurements.
afterschool practice work.
whatever it was that led to the perpetual giggles.
belly elementary school laughing.
the kind that you can't stop no matter what.

i was transported elsewhere.
away from anything else.
and for a glimmer. a mere glimmer.
i felt not a single weight or real worry.
and remembered what that was like.

a fresh breath.
and then it was gone.



.the favorite part of my day

two things i found and loved today

Number One

Yes.. . i am a lover of all things Downton Abbey. 

{like I am sure many of you}

especially Violet, the Dowager Countess of Grantham

played by Maggie Smith

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Number Two

this Caedmon's Call cd was all i listened to for a time in college. 

My CD player stumbled upon it today. 

Quite purposefully as things happen.

how ironic that my blog title circles around the same theme as some of the lyrics

[cause if the birds and the flowers survive, then i'll make it ok] 

This song Table for Two. and this line is of my favorites.

"that i've forgot what House I live in"

1:55

what I'm listening to and Loving today

i wouldn't mind a country song written about me .. . 

wasting time productively

I watched a YouTube video last week where some hipster guy mocked Pinterest. .. and then in the end went full circle saying how it was useful for even people like him.

There are times when I could be using my time more wisely .. . but I do find endless teaching resources - lesson plans - templates -
on there. along with fashion ideas, recipes {many which i'm waiting to try} and so much more.

Whether or not others think it is frivolous - I could care less.
I'm sticking with you, Pinterest.

If you want to find me .. .
it's Kimberly Anne (liliesoffield)

Here are some recent pins in my q.uotes and Life List folder.

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early morning dreams

i woke up this morning. 
my mind still in a dream.
_ was sitting with my mom at a table somewhere talking.

she was as clear as day. i could touch her. 
could see her freckled, ever so wrinkled face.
.her beauty.
i could feel her presence. 
her absolute warmth.


i knew if i woke to real consciousness i would lose her. ..
but my alarm clock beckoned.
the only way to keep it real was to tell someone
:so i reached out to my sister.
texted her immediately.
in my mind, if i told her my mom was near_ she wouldn't really be gone for the morning.
she'd remain close.
there is no logic.
.i get that.

.and i'm ok with it.






these are the two songs for today.
the first i just heard on the ride home. and so very fitting for this week.
You know how to toss 'em my way.

the second: an oldie but ohhh. so goodie.

Is there anything better than His comfort? 

I can always find the deepest breath. in His name. 

.peace.

the u.turn

time doesn't make it easier. 
the pain that is in my heart is still as raw and physically real in the deepest moments of heartache as two years ago. 

i tried to go to my mom's grave today. 
i ended up having to do a u.turn in the middle of the street after a serious. meltdown. 
i know she's not at the gravesite.

i don't know what made me feel like i had to go.. . the fact that it has been two years. 
Two years since i have seen her. 
Touched her. Held her. 
Talked to her.

I know she would say I'm not there - I'm with Jesus. Don't make yourself upset. 

Time doesn't make it easier. 
My heart still aches. 
i know where she is. 
but i want to be next to her.

from today

mannequins on the toilet

ok. this is AWESOME.
i so miss Polaroid.
but two questions.
Why the creepy mannequin?
and what is with the girl developing a photo on the toilet?